Chapter Four; Teagan

I finally crawl out of bed.I’d been stareing at the ceiling for what feels like forever. How long have I been laying here..  12:25, four hours. What on earth has come over me? I jump in the shower and the let hot water bounceoff my bare chest. It feels wonderful, but not even this shower could quiet my thoughts. I’ll be fine Teagan, you’re right, I can’t cut them out, I have to go. 


While towling my hair I hear the phone ring.
“Hello?”
“Teagan,  it’s so good to hear your voice.”
“Adrien! How is it going so far?”
“They’re animals, as usual.”
“I’m sorry, but if I do recall correctly, you can be an animal too…”
“TEAGAN”
Giggling I took the phone and put it upto my other ear
“It’s good to hear from you Adrien, I’ve missed you”
“I’ve missed you aswell, but I have too be going..”
“So soon?”
“Yes, we are going out.. I love you”
Before I had a chance to reply, he was gone. 


As I walk down the beach I attempt to clear my mind. I’ll only be gone for a week. The memory of his voice resides in my head, and comforts me. Only a few days till he comes back. Why am I soo helpless without you Adrien… This thought doesn’t comfort me at all. Throws me into a battle with my own mind. How can I be this attached to someone. This can’t be natural. It can’t.


Sitting stareing out onto the ocean, the sweet smell of the air, the grainy feel of the sand under mt bare feet. I love him. As un natural as my head wants to make this seem, my heart is determined to make me feel that this is alright. This is normal, and I should be happy. I am happy.